life, work, and spirituality

I've known for a while that I hold social media a little too preciously; in an ideal world, we would all utilize our online presence to give friends and loved ones an unadulterated window into our lives — be it positive or negative. There is something attractive about knowing that someone is being REAL and not curating their image for some public gain; BeReal and efforts of the like seem to be a step in the right direction. That being said, there are positives to curation and creating a public image — that's what I aim at with my writing. I guess the most important thing is to do so while both telling and living the truth; this is definitely something I'm trying to improve at.

In college, I staked a lot of my self-worth in how others see me — more specifically in my identity as an entrepreneur and aspiring founder. Since starting to work full time I have been spending nights and weekends writing code for personal projects in pursuit of the fabled status of a solopreneur. It's been pretty tiring, this routine of programming for 8 hours and then coming home to write code for 3 more. The realization that recently curtailed this practice wasn't that "it is too hard" or "I don't have work-life balance" — seasons of doing something unsustainable are sometimes necessary to achieve a goal — but rather, I came to the conclusion that if I had to identify an occupation that plays to my strengths, is enriching, and has the potential to positively impact the most people, it wouldn't be programming, it would be writing.

Something else I've been thinking about a lot recently is the topic of spirituality — for some reason I find this topic hard to talk about. I grew up in a pretty fervently spiritual family — a characteristic that I have been at a loss to integrate into my own life. I'm hyper-rational by nature, a trait that I think has been making it difficult to "find God" in some sense. Despite where you may stand on the issue of belief, I'm increasingly realizing the unsustainability of going through this life thing without putting your faith in SOMETHING.

In summation, things are generally going pretty well; If whoever is reading this was looking for an excuse to give me a call to catch up, this is it :)